孙国庆

小弟本名是孙国庆，但是很多人问我为何我家人会把我的名字取为国庆？？其实啊，我本身都不知道原因，但是这是我爸过世的生母在生前为我取的。。因为如此，我一年有三次的生日。。哈哈哈哈。。

活到今天也二十多年了，好命的话早就成家了，事业也应该会有一点点的成就了。。但是如今的我还是如此的失败，一无所有，事业无成。。我名下产业也只有一台笔记型电脑。。真是：人也没，钱也没。

“不经一事，不长一知”这一句话对我来说，这两三年我才领悟它的原意。。这几年，我本身以及身边的人发生了一些事情，导致我对人生观改变了不少。。

我的人生到了今天，最失败的也只是那两件事而已，就是爱情与事业。。

事业对一个男人是非常重要的。。而我是一个事业无成的一个男人。。从学院毕业到现在，我一共换了四份工。。老实讲，这些工里，没有一份是和我在学院学的东西有直接的关系。。但是我却很满意在这些工里。。但是近来我的脑海里浮现了我长久以来的计划，我妈和爸也算是一个很了解我的人，我本身在想如果第一个计划泡汤的话，我只好选择第二的计划。我想这些计划也只有她知道。。以前的我不会珍惜机会，现在的我一有机会就要好好握紧。。

许多人说我到这一年龄，还是一无所有，没车没房没现金是非常难再找到一段新的恋情了。其实我同意这说法。。那会有女生会去爱上一个什么都没有的男人呢？？

其实我这人很贱。以前有很爱我的人，但是那时的我还不懂事，结果伤害了无数女生的心。。最近才结束了一场半长距离的爱情。。虽然在一起的时间不长，但是她让我感到非常高兴是因为我们都有用心去爱对方。。虽然结局不是我们想要的，但是我想说我从来没有怪你，所以请您不要在对我说对不起了。。我只希望你可以快乐和他过生活就可以乐，照顾你自己和记得我告诉你的东西。。

现在的我时常告诉其他人，要珍惜你身边爱你的以及你爱的人，不要等到失去了，才来后悔也没用了。。有些人总是说我很花心，时常换女友，身边的女生时常都不一样的。。我问心无愧，朋友多，并不代表女友多，好不好？还有也有一些好笑的朋友，每当我失恋，他们一定会说我有很多女性朋友，一定很快有另一女友了。。谢谢你们看得起我，但是我不是每一个女生都回去喜欢。。

今天不知明天事。。这是我最近做人的原里。。因为我们根本不会知道说明天的我会是什么，所以我都会以最开心的心情去过每一天。。

Love

爱一人
如果你不爱一个人,
请放手
好让别人有机会爱她
如果你爱的人放弃了你,
请放开自己,
好让自己有机会爱别人
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的,
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的

人生中有许多种
但别让自己让
成为一种伤害
有些缘分是注定要失去的,
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的,
爱 一个人不一定要拥有,
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了
如果真诚是一种伤害,我选择谎言;
如果谎言一种伤害,我选择沉默;
如果沉默是一种伤害,我选择离开
如果失去是苦 你怕不怕付出 ,
如果迷乱是苦 你会不会选择结束,
如果追求是苦 你会不会选择执迷不悟 ,
如果分离是苦 你要向谁倾诉,
好多事情都是后来才看清楚,
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦

U

This morning when i saw u online, i so happy.. at the end, i stil can chat wit u again.. tat time my heart told me is i should happy or should worry to u ?

at the end, i chat wit u de.. when i get noe tat u n him now already become couple de, my heart duno should happy or should sad.. happy is cause finally u n him can together, u found someone tat u can depends on ur life de.. sad cause i noe finally my dreams all gone de.. u no longer belongs to me liao..

not i no wan tell u all the thing tat girl tell me.. is just i noe now u n him together de, i should respect ur bf.. i shouldn't said something bad bout ur bf wan..tat girl told me all the thing aso is bad thing related to ur bf wan.. tat's why i choose to keep silent.. but at the end, i aso said some of tat to u.. but cant said some, mostly the part all i noe, i already tell u de.. u should noe this thing.. he should tell u all the thing..

jsut now, when i login my friendster, i saw my profile again.. from wat u tell me recently, i think it again n again n again .. i duno whether v stil can together back in future or not, but for respect u, i guess i should delete the thing which is i post at friendster de.. even i really no wan go to delete, but i aso need to delete, cause now u no longer belongs to Mr Alex Soon Kok Kheng de.. ur bf name not this wan de.. so when i delete the feature frens there, the slide show, i so so so so so sad for tat.. i duno the reason why u no wan delete all the thing inside friendster, i aso remember i said tat i wont delete all the thing first, i ll wait u delete first then only i delete wan.. but at the end, i delete first..

u tell me tat u ll responsible for all the action n decision tat u make b4.. now i wan tell u is no matter u choose is me or him or others guys, once u stay happy, the enough de.. u r the one tat i cant put down even break for 2 weeks de.. this is not others reason, cause i stil love u, i worry to u... i understand u so much, u understand me so much, both of us aso got 1 same point, v wan worry to each others, but v din hope our couple to worry for us.. mayb now u worry to me just from the frens side only, no matter how, i worry to u cause i act u is my lovely..

虽然我不舍得，但是我是需要很大方的祝福你和他有一个很美满的恋情。。
记得，要珍惜你身边的他。。

分手的第八天

今天是我们和平分手的第八天。

过了一个星期了，你现在在哪里呢？好想打个电话，传简讯给你，但是我还是没有办到。这是因为怕打扰你和他。。每有你的日子，我还是照我的生活习惯的过我的日子，但是没有了你，我的生活不再那麽的精彩，我的时间总是走的特别慢。

我时常我不经意的想问，你最近好吗？今天的你吃饱了吗？今天的你开心吗？

这段日子里，上网friendster以及facebook，对我来讲已经没有了乐趣。。我每天上网还只是想看看你的照片。。每天期待你会传简讯给我，还是和我连系，让我知道你的现况。。虽然我知道这些是不可能会再发生了，但是我还是会在这等你连络我。。

Lonely

Lonely man missing his lover.If you could shop for loneliness,would you shop alone?
Would you shop among many,or would there even be any?And if you were to find loneliness,sitting there upon a shelf.
Would you be willing to pay the price,for the seclusion of ones self?We spite the feel of loneliness.Although it is quite real.
We can't quite escape the darkness and self pity,that loneliness makes us feelLoneliness often makes us think of familyand mistakes we've made in life.
My loneliness comes most often,when I think about my lover.

s@dn3sS

Sadness is a feeling - it's one of the many normal human emotions, or moods, we all have.
Sadness is the emotion people feel when they've lost something important, or when they have been disappointed about something, or when something sad has happened to them or to someone else. When they're lonely, people often feel sad.
When you're sad, the world may seem dark and unfriendly. You might feel like you have nothing to look forward to. The hurt deep inside may crush your usually good mood.Sadness makes you feel like crying, and sometimes the tears are hard to stop. Crying often makes you feel better.
Sometimes when your mood is sad, you just feel like being alone for a little while. Or you might want someone to comfort you or just keep you company while you go through the sad feeling. Talking about what has made you sad usually helps the sad feeling melt away.
When sadness starts to go away, it can feel like a heavy blanket is being lifted from your shoulders.